January

life, musings, Poems, poetry, quotes, random, random thoughts

Prove your worth
Roam the Earth
live a little
Crack a smile
but it seems not in January
not with all the mess
not with all these problems,
Well life lessons
The year has just begun
Young man life has just sprung
Echoes of advice
I’m competent but ill prepared
The thoughts of a procrastinator
I always thought I thought ahead
But what I thought I thought I had
Is something I don’t need and certainly something don’t I have.
Oh sweet January
you’re just here to show me who I could be
and remind me who I was and Who I am
This is a fresh start
It seems all I do is wait, wait, wait
I’ve always loved new beginnings
but it’s hard to move through life
carrying the past on your shoulders
Now if only I can attain something I desperately need
A clear mind.

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Black Tea

depression, god, inspiration, life, Poems, poetry, quotes, random thoughts, spilled ink, thoughts, truth, writing

Constant pressure on my conscience

I’m such a mess. Mentally. Physically

I can’t pretend anymore

Watch my smile diminish

A blank stare, when you look at me.

False hope, I only thought because I was bored

Ah, the wonders of an idle mind

Stuck in a black hole

How am I ever going to pull myself back up this time?

Life still has its perks, I guess

I’m going to do what I always do

And just hope that it works

For I really can’t deal with the anxiety

But what I really need,

I need my Bed, Pen, Notepad

And some Black Tea.

 

Empty

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I feel so empty

But I may show a face full of life

Not afraid to live a lie

I feel so empty

All I have is memories

But nothing to look forward too

for I have lost

what I had fought for

I feel so empty

I’ve given up on wants and needs

I’m too comfortable having nothing

I’m too content to act

I feel so empty

Maybe because I cannot do anything

Maybe because I have nothing to live for

I feel so empty

Only because

Only because

I guess I just want to be

Anxiety

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My boat sinks slowly 

I tend to worry about the Inevitable

Stricken by anxiety 

Maybe I’m just a fool, Over thinking, Over analyzing

I can’t help but feel edgy 

I can’t do anything but wait

As I juggle my brain, time and faith

The water rises, I take deep breaths

I close my eyes and prepare to dive 

in the depths of my mind

 All I have is this anxiety 

At least I think I do

As for now I’ll swim in this deep deep ocean 

Because that’s all I can do 

Swim or drown in my sea of thoughts.