January

life, musings, Poems, poetry, quotes, random, random thoughts

Prove your worth
Roam the Earth
live a little
Crack a smile
but it seems not in January
not with all the mess
not with all these problems,
Well life lessons
The year has just begun
Young man life has just sprung
Echoes of advice
I’m competent but ill prepared
The thoughts of a procrastinator
I always thought I thought ahead
But what I thought I thought I had
Is something I don’t need and certainly something don’t I have.
Oh sweet January
you’re just here to show me who I could be
and remind me who I was and Who I am
This is a fresh start
It seems all I do is wait, wait, wait
I’ve always loved new beginnings
but it’s hard to move through life
carrying the past on your shoulders
Now if only I can attain something I desperately need
A clear mind.

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Black Tea

depression, god, inspiration, life, Poems, poetry, quotes, random thoughts, spilled ink, thoughts, truth, writing

Constant pressure on my conscience

I’m such a mess. Mentally. Physically

I can’t pretend anymore

Watch my smile diminish

A blank stare, when you look at me.

False hope, I only thought because I was bored

Ah, the wonders of an idle mind

Stuck in a black hole

How am I ever going to pull myself back up this time?

Life still has its perks, I guess

I’m going to do what I always do

And just hope that it works

For I really can’t deal with the anxiety

But what I really need,

I need my Bed, Pen, Notepad

And some Black Tea.

 

Hours to death

god, Poems, poetry, random thoughts, religion, spilled ink, thoughts, Uncategorized, writing

I’m alone in my room

The sound of silence is making me nervy

But I confidently drink a glass of alcohol

I ease myself and think about the life I have lived

I have nothing to be proud about

I have nothing to be sad about

I thought I had everything I ever wanted

My money couldn’t buy me happiness

It cannot buy time

The gentle breeze coming through the open window

Brushes my motionless face

I realize I’m still alive

I’m breathing slower now

I remember god

I thank him for everything he has done for me

I close my eyes

I pray